Well seeing as finalsn are coming up I’m stressing a lil about them but the what the stress is: are VERY little things such as every so often I think “will I pass?” then I ignore the thought, and “I wonder will I have time to study or wHat ways can I study?” then I ignore the thought basically I’ve figured out 2 things that can help me in the future with stress, 1. If I ignore the problems while slightly thinking about it I don’t worry so much and 2. Don’t “strive to achieve” (Not saying just give but saying do the best I can without driving my self crazy baically it’s like saying if I pass I pass if I don’t I don’t, say: f.ck this stuff almost, basically if I get a D I get a D if I get a C I get a C it’s almost like not caring all while not FULLY not caring.( It’s hard to understand but it’s like one of those mystic monk zen BS sh.t they always say such as grab the pebble in the blink of an eye or something.) Thus the result of this combined product is: The feeling of being slightly almost always relaxed looking and not caring all while being able to do a pretty good job at work, it’s weird crazy and pretty neat. *I kinda like it* Now it’s like If someone say’s did you study for the final I just shrug and say: eh whatever. As it’s become an awesome trait of life. “Through the fire and the flames I carry on!!!”

I tried the piece of shit we call MyMathLab AGAIN today and I got an answer 100% accurate and I’M STILL WRONG What the fuck?!!! (MyMathLab Fails HARD) But the thing that REALLY sucks aabout MyPeiceOfShitLab is that if you don’t complete each segement 100% you don’t get to continue and that’s not right I would like to point that I’ve learned more in High-School math than I have using MyMathLab. (And that say’s a obvious something of: MYMATHLAB IS BULLSHIT)

I HATE MYMATHLAB BEACUASE YOU HAVE TO BE FUCKING 100% ACCURATE ON THE FUCKED UP PEICE OF SHIUT AND SO IN ORDER TO CONTINUE ON IT YOU HAVE TO TRY TRY TRY TRY TRY TRY TRY TRY TRY TRY TRY TRY TRY TRY UNTIL YOUR TO THE FUCKING POINTWHERE YOU WANNA BLOW YOUR BRAINS OUT AND THAT IS NOT LEARNING MATH THATS HOW YOU EDIT MATH IN HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

Right now I’m just a little down-w/-feelings with not having as much freetime lately and all the homework it seems they try to “dish-out” at all of us students lately, I’m hating college and the cycle of life which is a combination of: ”college, short-amount-of-time, WAY TOO SHORT weekends/breaks, WAY TOO SHORT free-time, and time going by way too fast.” equaling to a living hell at times, so I figure the only way to live through it “sanely” is to not-care about any or all of it anymore, so thus this is what I’m doing to live in this tragic life. I would like to also add a P.S.: MyMathLab is perhaps the most f..king idiotic piece of sh.t I’ve seen for math in all my day’s so far of doing math!!! I mean seriously WHAT THE F..K?!!! I put in an answer for 1.16 when it’s an estimating problem and MML comes up with 1.161 IT’S 1 BLOODY EXTRA THING AND 1.16 AND 1.161 ARE THE SAME D..N THING I MEAN REALLY IT’S LIKE WHAT THE F..K?!!!! Quote of the day: Grim Reaper: ”Thats it now piss off you lil pr..k!!! I’ve got some cats to see, God how I hate those things how they meow and sh.t everywhere and their p.ss smells just bloody awful!”

I’ve been thinking lately about Thanksgiving Break and all that and I’m thinking: “will I be able to get all my work done for Thanksgiving to have a possible stress free weekend or something, I also wonder whats gonna be going on for Thanksgiving, I mean yeah I know I’m gonna be going to one of my cousin’s house to have Thanksgiving dinner but I’m still wondering whats gonna happen when we go there, I figure though; “oh well what happens, happens, what doesn’t happen, doesn’t happen, it’s that simple.” All I know is I wish there was more freetime in the day or weekend because it would REALLY help.

I’m tryin to just kinda relax but it’s harder than it seems I am suddenly *slightly* overwhelmed with the work-flow of college and it’s kinda gettin on my nerves all I know is: I CAN’T WAIT TILL THE SEMESTER IS OVER hopefully I’ll pass and if not then oh-f…ing-well if I do pass I’m only takin 1 class next semster because this is way-the-f…-too-much!!!! “Quoff the raven nevermore”…Edgar Allen Poe

“Right now I’m doin alrite I just feel that I have to: not worry too much yet not be so relaxed: as to be in a coma/stoned, I believe it has to be a state of relaxation that still is aware of school work and me wishing to do it which is where I’m inching at right now, I think I just need to get some math and english done and be determined all the while being relaxed at the same time dealing with the pressures of life” Wish me luck!!! :D “Quote of the day: If at first you don’t succeed then skydiving isn’t for you!!!” (Thnx to one of my friends on this one!)

I’ve been a little worried about the finals because I know they’ll be here before I know it and so this kinda unerves me but all I know right now is to just continue trying my best and doing my work and believe “hopefully I’ll get there”. “Nobody ever calls me stud biscuit” A quote off of a comic.

I was told to try my best and I am so I’m just trudging along but I can’t help but feel a small something in my work might be missing if it is, it is. I f it isn’t, it isn’t either way I’m just gonna do my work while chillaxin at the same time (in a sense). “Quote of the day:That is on a need to know basis and as long as there is a God in heaven you will never need to know, thus such ignorance is bliss” (A comic strip I read daily) 

Well one moment I’m feeling mad as hell the next I’m happy then mad and it just keeps going like this, IT’S SOOO FRUSTRAING!!!!! But I guess since I’m doing alrite 4 now I guess then that proves I’m having a better day than the usually days I’ve been having. You see (If you haven’t caught on to it by my blog) I’ve been having what I call:”BadFurDay’s” to quote off of a game or “BFD’s” for short and lately it’s sucked!!! But now as I’m back on track (a lil) I ccan be at peace (slightly) and continue life hopefully not as stressed as I was before. (I just hope I can make it through “Finals” and pass them.) I’ll end this with a quote I like from a game I like of: “It’s gonna be one of those days”