Day 1 Wensday10/21/09: It’s official I’m tired of it all; tired of this college bullshit, tired of this this fucking homework, tired of trying to stay on top of my work, all this is doing is stressing me to the brink of insanity and to tell you the truth by now I-I just don’t give a fuck anymore!!! I hate this, I feel consumed and trapped by college work with no way out and I figure what’s the point of continuing I don’t know wether to drop a class, continue struggling with this pain and misery of work , or just fucking say: “screw this!” and stop working altogether while still going to the classes and eventually just: “crashing and burning in the flames of misery”. My motto/plan has always been in life: 1. Go to elementary/jr/high school and get a deploma 2. go to college (and maybe work part time eventually at an “alrite” job on the side) then graduate from college with a (possibly) good degree. 3.Get a “real” job (hopefully one I would like to work at with my life), then after years of work, 4. retire and then eventually die happily, this was to be my dream, but alas apparentally things don’t go as “planned” in this fucking twisted-cruel world so I say: fuck it all, fuck this bullshit, if I do quit college though I wonder; what will I do; the only options I see are fucking get a horrid-job (one I probably am gonna hate and then eventually quit from living unhappily and maybe eventually homeless thus leading to drugs, alcohol both, or death by homicide or sucide, or possibly a combination of all three.). But you know what who gives a fuck because I guess we just gotta live by the fucking motto I’ve learned and engraved in my head as: “life-is-shit-get-the-fuck-used-to-it” because I know it to be damn well true and I’m just completely tired of this stress, so if anyone has any hints to solve my dilema please: GIVE THEM TO ME (Otherwise I see a future of black-abyss with no fucking way out) Quote-of-life: “life is shit get the fuck used to it”./  Day 2 Thursday 10/23/09: Well my fucking hell in this God-Damned mother fucking college continues & I’ve realized something finally today: WHY THE FUCK AM I EVEN DOING THIS?!!!!!! Then it also dons on me the reason is because of a bitch-ass person named: My Mother. That’s right aren’t parents supposed to “help” their children with college, not fucking drive them into a furious state ranting and yelling to the point of drinking (which quite literally I almost did decide to drink today) You see the reason I say this she’s “forcing” me to go to College because she said: “you’re either gonna go to college or you have to get a job take your pick” (She knows damn well that I don’t have the confidence to go do a job so shes basically got me by the balls saying: GO TO COLLEGE) Well this is my message to her: “watch your back, because I WILLL get my revenge” Fucking bitch….I-I just don’t know anymore I mean I-I can’t handle all thi stress and I don’t really care anymore but yet I’m back in a corner with college constantly raping me in the ass, so it’s like well I’m fucked. I’ve got no options so…. I guess….yeah……Tuesday 10/27/09: I hate life and the rest of the world, (well at least certain “friends” I have in this world) you see the reason I say: “friends” is a few day’s ago I lent one of my “friends” a gme I had and he lent me one well turns out the fucker meant trade as in to keep, (stupid prick) on top of that dumb-ass constantly is sending me shit-text at college it’s like: uh…hello! “Dumbfuck” I’m in college get a fucking clue you fucking twat!!! Anyway how I see it is since the fucker tricked me I’ll “trick” him back next time I go over to his place why not just “borrow” the game and never return it that way I have his game he ”traded” me and I also have mine back this way this proves: “Hey dumbfuck, don’t mess with me.”